For two days now, I've been in Boracay, but I haven't seen the beach yet.

HUWAT! I'm here for work though. Shoot. All expenses paid. I love it. And I got to stay at Mandala Spa. Awesome in every single way. I don't want to leave. Moving to a beach front hotel in a while though... :) Sana lang naman maka-sunbathe ako even just for 30 mins. during break.

Sabi ata ni Lord, "trabaho na muna, maitim ka na naman eh."

I am stuck in a rut.

I just want to be carefree again. How come it's so hard to do that nowadays?

Growing up can really suck.

During the months in between June 2007, when I kinda ignored the existence of LJ, and this day, the following events have managed to lodge themselves into my memory:

Somewhere ending the month of June, I had one perfect day with him. Mr. Kabab lunch, walking around in UP, random conversations by the lagoon, early intoxication, Dave Chapelle clips, holding hands. Love it.

Early July brings hope. Making up over some McDo breakfast after a night of fighting. Can't get any better. Followed by 2 days of swimming fun with people from work. Then buying a car on the 3rd day. Haha.

August kinda stunk. Nothing much happened, but I was happy.

September was BUSY. Dinners, coffee dates, beer days, Tagaytay getaways. Then I got myself Sputnik, my LC-A+! :) Saisaki was the best place to go on a date, by the way. Plus this was the month that I explored the club scene of Manila. Oh so not me, but I have to admit that I had fun. :) Plus I met this guy, who I'll eventually find out is an asshole. Damn.

The guy I met during September does all the boyfriendry moves this month. Overwhelming attention was thrown my way. Damn him. Anyway, this was the month we had to say bye to shmartypants as she leaves us for NY. :( NOOOO! Hay. My cousin got married on the 27th of this month. Yey to Tagaytay getaways again! Also, during this wonderful -ber month, a good friend kidnaps me more than once and by the end of this month, gives me one drunken kiss. Not the best way to end the month.

Oh, November. Became a teacher for the month - photography for kids - at Fully Booked in Boni High. The boyfriendry guy leaves for an Asian country, comes back and decides not to talk to me AND get back together with his ex. Yay. Got my license. Went on some dates (weh!) and I'm still single. More coffee dates with my amigas. More kidnapping from that good friend. We ignored the kissing disaster, just so you know. Tried my skillz at speaking French as well (not related at all with the last sentence). Once again, explored the night life of Manila and it IS fun. :)

The best way to end the year. December, as expected, was full of parties, dinners, etc. Organized the company Christmas party, which was fun. Started driving on my own, practically given a car. :) Shopping was waaaay fun this year. Family and friends are love. The usual Assumption dinner was very laid-back and I love it like that. But what I loved about this month was seeing him beside me, snoring. :)

New year, not so new things. More responsibilities though, but it's aiiight. Texas Roadhouse has become a third home for the Blow-Up Babies people. Haha. Coffee breaks are still around. Meals and tamad days with friends are abundant. I am still single, but I am falling in love more and more with him. My social life is slowly coming back to life, which I love. Oh yeah, I think the new year is telling me to be more careful. I've had around 3 injuries this month alone. Hahaha.

THIS MONTH! Becoming a 24-year-old didn't change much. Oh yeah, I made a grown man tear up during the 1st hour of my birthday. I love him. :) But, man, this month really was and is all about family and friends. I don't think I've been happier not getting enough sleep because I spend a lot of late nights with the people I care for. The early morning sneaking-into-the-house adventure is a lot more fun than it used to be. :) I guess it is the month of love.

Somewhere along the way, I forgot I had this outlet and instead, I've just bitched to myself (and to my helpless dog) the past months. Hopefully, I'll remember to visit this more often than I should.

It's been a while since I actually wrote down my random thoughts or wonderful memories; I kinda miss doing this. Let me just catch up on people's lives before I try getting back in the game. :) With that said, I hope you guys are all doing great!

Happy Valentine's Day. :)

I lost some more hair. :)



Cut my short hair even shorter on the last day of April. Wala lang, ito na naman ako sa "change" eklat ng buhay ko. Well, it's just hair. I might actually get some color in my hair soon... Change na naman. It's always been jet black anyway. So what's wrong with adding some reds/purples/blues to it? Haha. Ewan.

And oh, for those who aren't my contacts in Multiply, I shall post this journal entry of mine dated last April 23. Just in case. :) (This actually works, you know. Well, not all the time. Shameless plugs are good.)

I promise that I will kick myself in the ass for as long as it takes to start my photography portfolio already. Really. Seriously. Now.

I'm already done with Step 01, which is to buy Post-Its. It's a crucial and fundamental part of this entire portfolio thing. Gotta love Post-Its and random thoughts.

Now, I just have to find time to shoot. Thursday photo trips, anyone? :)

And who wants to model for me? It could be for...
a) glamour (if you want your fashyon/beauty portraits taken);
b) artistic nudes (yes, I know some of you want to be photographed in the nekkidness! Haha! Sample of my nude shots are here: flickr.com/photos/margaux_soriano)
c) random/urban/phototrip modeling (like you're just sitting on a park swing, etc.)
d) exterior/interior of your houses and mansions. Hehe.

And if you know anyone who needs nice product shots done (x-deal), let me know okay? Basta, for photography needs, I am here! Although, I don't do events. Unless you're very convincing. :)

Yun lang ang naiisip ko today. More intense thoughts to follow.

Yes, more intense thoughts. Hmm. Baka ma-utot lang ako. :)

Other than that, nothing else is new.

I got scared shitless tonight at work.

Some of the people at work and I were hanging outside the studio, smoking and sharing stories. It came to the point where the happy stories turned into scary ones.

So, we shared stories about 13th floors, elevators, showers and - this is the place I'd hate to see a ghost in - the comfort/bathroom. All the stories about seeing silhouettes behind you while you look in the mirror or someone knocking on a cubicle door but you can't see any feet and then some came rushing back into my memory. Grr.

Unluckily for me, after that, I had to go to the comfort room. There's a comfort room on the 2nd floor of Serendra where a friend of mine, who has a third eye, saw a silhouette of a woman disappear into one of the cubicle. She saw this from the reflection of the hand dryer, where you can see almost all the cubicles. Again, unluckily for me, that was the bathroom nearest to the studio.

I bravely went to the comfort room alone. Stupid establishment beside the CR had the lights closed for the "ambiance" of dining by candlelight. Or something. So I briskly walked towards the entrance of the CR in the dark.

Cubicle. Pee. Quickly open the door. Don't look at the mirror. Wash hands. Rinse. DON'T use the hand dryer. Get out of the comfort room. QUICKLY.

As soon as I got out of the bathroom - BAM! There he was. A silhouette of a man.

Oh, I'm sorry! Did I scare you??, says the silhouette in the dark.
Uhm. Oh. Haha. Yeah.
I'm sorry. And he laughs.

I walk away quickly, half scared and half embarrased.

Your hands are wet, he says. (Small talk ka pa, leche!)
I know, was my reply to someone who nearly made me pee my pants (if I hadn't gone beforehand, hehe.) I start walking faster, shaking the excess water from my hands.

Do you work here? (Ah shit, I'm walking away from you, mister, can't you see?)
Uh, yeah.
Where?
Over there, in that studio. Blow-Up Babies.
Okay. I work at the bar. (Oh shit, you're not some person having dinner here!)
What bar?
Fez.
Oh, I've tried it there. (Wanted to say that the service was quite slow that day!)
Really? How come I didn't see you there?
That was a long time ago.
Well, you should go again sometime. See you! (You think I would after this?!)
Yeah. Bye!

Before I can even reach the door of the studio, I was laughing my ass off! I can't believe I got so scared like that, that I actually forgot my manners and was talking to the guy behind me without looking back! Okay, fine. Mas nahihiya ako sa kanya. Nonetheless, my heart hurt and so did my stomach. I just wish that the guy I ran into didn't work there so the chances of me seeing him again would be thin to none. Buti nalang hindi ako sumigaw sa mukha nya!

I wonder how my face looked like for him to actually ask me if he scared me. Shhhiiiiit. Sa lahat naman kasi ng araw na pwedeng mangyari 'to sakin, right after pa magkwentuhan about ghosts! Feel na feel ko tuloy! Hahaha!

Lesson learned. Don't hurry out of the comfort room when it's dark outside. Or pee before sharing scary stories.

Got that same feeling that pillowstains got, so I posted some of my own lomo stuff at my Multiply site. :) Hopefully I find more time to go around and just be shutter happy.
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Just one of the few things that has been keeping me sane and smiling the past few days.

Desperately trying to find the good in the bad. Tough, tough, tough.

At work today, a guy walks in with his kid and a yaya to inquire. He, then, asks if we can do this set-up for him where his kid is inside a cooking pot that is filled up with popcorn. Why not? :) It'll be fun. But I didn't think he was that serious.

Little did Donna (our manager) and I know that the guy we're talking to owns Holy Kettle Corn! Most of the people at work (if not all) are addicted to that! Holy Kettle Corn, Batman! Of course, I couldn't let the opportunity pass without mentioning how addicted the company is to his product. Hehe, he did say that he'll bring us some. Hope he really does!

With three huge bags of popcorn (and these aren't the huge bags you can buy from their stalls) and his cute kid, Skye, I fixed the holy popcorn madness set-up and enjoyed the photo shoot while eating some popcorn. Hehe. :)

As expected, vanity took over once the shoot was over. :) Hahahaha! Alavet!!!


More photos at my Multiply account.

Sometimes I'm amazed at how much fun my job can get. :)

Thank you for the inspiration. I bet you have no idea what it means to me. (Maybe now you do.)
Also, thank you for patiently guiding my brother and being a huge part of who he is now.
Rest in peace, Marlon.

PS. I shall replace the image soon.

Meet the newest toy of my brother and I. Yeeeeeeaaaaahhhhh!!! Lensbaby 3G!!!! Finally bought one yesterday after seeing one on display at the JT Photoworld booth in Glorietta.

I love it! Can't wait to play with it soon! Weeeeeee!!!

It's all worth it. I'm broke, but I'm happy. :)

My dog's sick. :(

She's been throwing up since the other night. Thought that it was maybe because she ate something weird again, like the plants in the backyard. She likes to munch on them leaves even if it makes her stomach upset.
But I got home late today and I saw that her poop has blood in it. It was actually more blood than poop. :( My mom said that that was the 2nd time she had bloody poop today.

I'm getting really worried. I know she's old, but I so don't want her to die. I know I say that I want a new puppy and all... well, I take it back now!!! I'm going to try my best to bring her to the vet tomorrow. God, please let there be a car/someone to drive me to the vet/time for me to bring her before work.

I hope she wakes up feeling and doing so much better tomorrow. Please let this be just a stupid stomach ache she's having.

I really can't sleep. I'm so praning that I wake her up when I don't see her chest moving while she's sleeping. It makes me want to cry.

I really hope she gets better.

It's better late than never. :)



And a Happy New Year, too! Hope you guys are having fun during this holiday season. :) Wee!

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Photo taken by perky_pearl. Taken at the Blow-Up Babies studio. :)

PLUGGING TIME! Hahahaha.
Blow-Up Babies is selling gift certificates (perfect as a gift!) if you're interested. And oh! Our Serendra branch at The Fort is now open! So that's more accessible to the people from the south, so go!
Visit our website at www.blowupbabies.com for more info. Yeeha!

I felt like I needed to change something in my life so I started this change with something that I can easily deal with - my hair. :)

 

I actually like it better now. I had it cut a few days ago and I'm still getting used to it (and so are the people around me, hehe). It's really a huge change from my usual long & layered haircut. If I'm not mistaken, the last time my hair was this short was back in 1st year high school. And I have bangs! I think I was 8 the last time I had 'em!

Well, that's one change. The next one is about to come, I just hope it turns out as good as this haircut. :)

I'm still awake and I can't fall asleep. I don't know whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. Rawr, it's frustrating.

I lack sleep, so it's weird why my eyes refuse to close. My mind just keeps on wandering to thoughts that I shouldn't really bother with right now. I hate this feeling; it's stupid.

While trying to fall asleep, I've already managed to finish watching Grey's Anatomy S03/E03, upload pictures on my Multiply (complete with descriptions and then some), backing-up old files, eatings lots of candy-coated peanuts, surfing through deviantArt, drinking around 3 glasses of water... and the list goes on.

I just want to fall asleep. But since I don't think that'll be happening anytime soon, I'll just answer this survey that I saw in girlmeetsgod's LJ. :) Hehehe, see what boredom does?

ARE YOU:
1. A cuddler? Yes, please. Haha.
2. A morning person? I think so, I'm rarely cranky. I mean I like getting the AM shift at work and I wake up early even after a very tiring night.
3. A perfectionist? I could be.
4. An only child? I'm the middle child and loving it. :)
5. Catholic? Yes :)
( it's your call... )

Still, my eyes are still open. ANO BA YAN.

It's starting to rain tonight, which is making me feel all emo. I can also feel my fever coming back. For some odd reason, it keeps on returning and I have no idea why. My colds and cough haven't even disappeared since Wednesday last week! I just want to get well because when I'm sick, I'm emotional. Too emotional even. I hate that part about getting sick. I don't mind the constant intake of medicine or waking up in the middle of the night to blow your nose. But I do mind the sudden burst of tears. I hate it.

Moving on.

This has got to be the story I've told a million times today. It's just that I can't believe how rude people are nowadays. Anyway, let me tell it again (and again and again :P). I went to my dermatologist last Saturday to have cauterization done on my face. That left me with a lots of small wounds on my face. It looks really disturbing, I know. And with people staring at my face, it's made me more conscious of how I look recently, but nothing made me feel worse than what happened yesterday... I was on the MRT going home when this girl, who was standing a short distance away, POINTED her finger at me and told her friends about my face, to which the two friends took their precious time to check out my skin. It's like they didn't even care if I was looking at them straight in the eye. How rude can you get?! They could've just whispered to one another. Geez.

Yun lang. :)

Ohh, I feel a very nice weekend coming up! Friday is my friend Michealle's birthday party in the village and that only means one thing: BEER!!! Beer + friends - I love & miss dearly. Then on Saturday is the Blow-Up Babies parteeey at the Juffmeister's house! Another night of drunken fun, wee! And then comes Sunday... HAPPY BIRTHDAY lightrefraction!!! :) Hahahaha! That, for me, is a nice weekend that I'll get to spend in the company of my friends. Naks. :)

In other news.

I've finally updated my deviantArt account with photos from my recent Ilocos trip. Much to ninjacarl's kakulitan, I got a Flickr account where the Ilocos photos & my artistic nudes can be found, too. And thanks to hi5homey, I have a Vox account! But I still have to find time to update those, hehehe. But do add me up! I want friends. Hehehe. :)

My life. Ah. It's interestingly boring. :)

I realized that it's been a while since I updated with random photographs and so I decided to put a little somesome together. Abd so, here's what I've been doing since the last time I updated.


This is during the opening of Marlon Despues' exhibit, La Piel, at the new Instituto Cervantes in T.M. Kalaw last July 18.
You guys should go check it out. It's awesome, really. 800 nudes. Grabe.
Marlon's works was the main inspiration for my nude photos.
The exhibit ends until the end of August! GO NOW! :)
( there's more behind this cut. )

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I'm looking forward to a lot of things that will be happening in the near future like a weekend family get-away in Ilocos for a photo shoot & my dad's birthday (work&play at its finest, I say :p) And I think I'll get to finally shoot with my film SLR again for that shoot, whoooopeeeee!!!

This is goodbye until something interesting happens to me again... Or if I decided to go emo on you guys. :)

You'll definitely love working for this company. :) And I'm saying this not because I'm sucking up to my uber cool bosses (hi intrigero & shmartypants!!!), but because it is absolutely true. Hehehehe. :) Diba, perky_pearl? :p Anywaaaaaaaaay...

Blow-Up Babies is hiring additional staff (Wee, we're growing!!!). Please call us at 9137710 for any questions; resumes go to jobs@blowupbabies.com. Or visit us in Gateway Mall and say hi :) Or visit our website at www.blowupbabies.com for more info about the company :)

PHOTOGRAPHERS (male/ female)
All applicants must have a working knowledge of photography and its concepts. Must enjoy working with children and thrive in a creative environment. If chosen, you have to be willing to undergo advanced training with us. Familiarity with studio lighting is preferred. Please have a portfolio prepared. Interns/ trainees are also welcome.

MANAGER
Must have at least 2 years experience in a managerial position; In addition to possessing leadership qualities she must be creative and have a love of photography and children. Knowledge in basic lighting and/or graphic design is a plus but not a requirement.

GRAPHIC ARTISTS
Must have an advanced knowledge in Photoshop. Style and artistic inclination has to be towards designing for children's photography. Must be cool, be in a band and play the bass guitar. Okay maybe not but you still have to be cool. Anyway please have a portfolio prepared.

I think shmartypants is responsible for the text above, so if you can't understand it, don't blame me. Hehehe. I joke!!!

If anyone's interested, but is hesitant, you can just approach me (text, call, visit, or just leave a message on Y!M) and ask whatever question you have. :)

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Other than work, my life is grrreat. :) It could be a bit bumpy at times, but I manage to do well with my friends around. Aww! Pero di nga, seryoso. Magulo kung sa magulo, pero masaya pa rin! :)

To sum it all up: woohoo!!!

OHHH YEAHHH!!!

I'm planning once again to do an ARTISTIC (that's the key word, folks) nude/skin shoot. This time, for females and males. I have no reason for the shoot yet, but I fear my inspiration's going to disappear soon if I don't do anything. It could be for a future exhibit (hi, lightrefraction :p), or for my portfolio (yeah, work on that, Margaux!), who knows. Just in case you don't trust me enough, I'll show you some of the nudes I've already done for an exhibit in the cut. :) So if you're willing enough to do or have always wanted a skin shot of themselves, please let me know. :) Thankyouverymuch.

( artistic nekkidness )

That's all for now. I will disappear again. :)

Hope you guys can make it! See you there! Thanks!

I have so many things I have/need and want to do that I don't know where to start.

Been trying to do shitloads of designs, but I seem to get stuck in the middle of my brilliant mind farts. So I end up with nothing but a bunch of unfinished designs, which is so sad. I've lost my touch. Well, just a bit. Ah, crap.

IMPORTANT NOTE!
Help me out please! Who wants to pose for me? I've got a group multimedia arts exhibit that's going to happen by the end of March and I need models for the artworks I'm exhibiting. :) Girls only, by the way. If you're interested and/or would just want to know the details, please let me know. :) I'm just a Y!M message away! (username: bullfunkee) Thankyouverymuch!

Ayayay. Stress makes me hungry.